My moon talk on the ‘Full Moon’ Day

Since a few days I have been trying to get back to a routine. Evening walk is a part of it and since I usually get late, I noticed the moon in its grandeur. It was so beautiful that I changed my regular path – because I wanted to have a look, then one more and another. Trust me it was probably the most beautiful thing I had seen in a while (thanks to the lockdown and the pandemic protocols), it was mesmerizing. 

A little secret is, I often talk to the moon. Considering it knows me inside out, I only talk to the moon in prayers (code language). Last month I did so while walking with 'Thandi Hava', that’s the latest name I have given to Karman (my nephew), and we both prayed together. His little company and long chats, the super unexpected logics and detailing inspires me. 

Why I find moon so relatable?

• The patience. 
• The silent shine that lights up the dark. 
• The peace, with which it travels through the phases. Unlike humans it never complains, what I mean is – that the sun still scorches us sometime , may be it gets worked up too. 
• The fact, that a moon is still a moon in all its phases. Whatever we may call it, it keeps going and lives on faith.
• The moon understands its phases and never lets the judgements affect it. Just like us humans, it dips into the dark, it brightens, it does gets faded and it tolerates the rains but it stays.
• The simplicity, the full moon stare is spiritual, romantic and full in itself. It reminds you of your powers, it always walks with you. It teaches us to never get threatened.
• The best thing, it is always there, checks on us every day and it never disappears. 
• The moon walks along protecting us even on the roads that we need to take alone. Just me, moon and God. 

Habitual over thinker that I am, surfed through Moon signs and the impact…..don't worry I am not the blind follower kind (in such cases I reaffirm to stay positive) but I did explored (deep inside I feel they are God’s signal to me) and this is what I got, Your full-moon affirmation: I love, accept, and integrate who I was and who I am now becoming.

 

See I told you, they are God’s messages to me. He told me to focus, he is not pained about me becoming me, he wants me to ride on, work hard and live it up. 

Keep Hope - Anyway.

Yesterday evening while walking in my balcony, I suddenly felt that it’s good to take it easy. Believe me I had been going through a terrible mindset with the series of event in the last fifteen days.  A person as positive as me got hit by circumstances and I started feeling shattered. As a result of which, I couldn't do my work at all, concentration – is been taken by thoughts of unreasonable people at work, complicated business scenario, hiding luck, unbelieving parents, TV remote, Facebook, chats etc. I have been actually thinking of dropping all the ambitions, projects, my dream run and everything. I reached a stage of comparisons & complaints. Gosh! And then I found this picture…for some reason I had kept it on my desktop.

Situations can be turned memorable with a smile -Keep Hope

Yes, it is up to me whether I come back to my sacred space with peaceful mindset of keep worrying about the currently loitering life. Every morning I wake up with a plan and sleep at night cribbing about another waste day.  Earlier if it was an 8 hours of productive work a day, now it is only 1 hour (I still doubt on that). Today I thought to share and unleash the burden. Believe me; I should be working right now…huh!

Now I took a break and tried to concentrate on my work. And guess what – there were things which disturbed me and then there are equal ways to release the tensions and I am so glad that I am slowly getting out of this phase also.In the meantime the following happened and I am happy that it happened:

My friend called me and we had a conversation for an hour – Ah! I am so relieved and then my other friend advised me through my blog – in a patient scolding manner and I am pretty much back on track.  I am so glad they exist.  I am getting geared up for my next project.

Things which disturbed me are like work situations, unreasonable clients, family pressures etc but then

People are unreasonable- we need to forgive them anyway. Right!

Situations are not always as we want. We need to face them –anyway.

Efforts are always counted but at times results get delayed. Make efforts - anyway.

And believe me; it is good to take it easy. But we need to work hard –anyway. 

Life do turns hopeless. Keep Hope - anyway.

Faith & Confidence

A Man Lost Everything in Fire, Next day he placed a Signboard-"House, Shop burnt, Goods burnt" But Faith & Confidence not burnt,Business Starts Tomorrow...

Dream Deadlock!

I believe in dreams. I always believed in dreams. Now-a-days I am struggling to keep them alive.

The life circumstances have been changing so that I am becoming nervous about my dreams. When I look back I realize, that I am struggling with a situation which is somewhat like - I dream, I plan and I resist. It’s like a struggle between dreams, wishes, aspirations and ambitions. Nothing is permanent and nothing will stay forever but we don’t stop working towards dream. There is conflict between my dreams-wishes and my ambitions-aspirations.

At times I am unhealthy and at times I am negative. There are two things attached to this statement. A bad health results in a step back from my ambitions-aspirations and the negativity disheartens me about my dreams. The continuity of both is resulting into a deadlock. There is lot of uncertainty about life and I am becoming cautious of my dreams I was certain of. There is war in my mind; not of right & wrong but of, this & that. I am fighting hard with my priorities and those of theirs. I am entering a Dreams Deadlock!

Nothing is stopping me but the circumstances. There is no hindrance but the expectations. There shall be no delays but I have lost the direction.

This is called Life and so far I am a die-hard optimist, fighting for the key to this deadlock of dreams. And here I would like to write those two lines which were momentary and still have so much of truth & depth – “Positivism resides in me, that’s why I am alive. But, I reside in negativity that’s why I am dying every moment”